常常听人说时间过得很快，
毕业后生活过得还好 。
想爬上山峰。
大喊。
把所有不忿都喊出来。
想沉在大海中。
放空脑袋。
把所有烦恼都忘掉。
想到宇宙飘浮。
离开地球。
把所有引力都抛开。
想面对清凉大雾。
平静心情。
把心的跳动都慢下来。
我想，
我很正常。
我很清醒。
别担心。
谁把我的号码乱给人 ？
我只想知道是谁，
我不会怪你。
好玩吗 ？
开心吗 ？
兴奋吗 ？
过瘾吗 ？
刺激吗 ？
你想怎样 ？
这件事过了多久 ？
你怎样诬赖我 ？
你记得吗 ？
你曾说过什么 ？
你又记得吗 ？
你怎样对人家 ？
你忘了吗 ？
想怎样 ？
说一声 。
你要玩 ？
我奉陪到底 。
但别介入我的生活 。
为什么做人做到那么低贱 ？
你的所作所为我都知道 。
你这样做了多久 ？
都不一起了，
还要再来烦她吗 ？
我都已经忍声吞气了 。
看在网上的一句话，
我都一直在忍 。
为什么还要来烦 ？
做第三者很爽哦 ？
拆散一对好玩吗 ？
我不知道。
我从未做过第三者。
你口口声声说我第三者，
在我朋友面前诬赖我，
我有说过什么 ？
当时只不过把你当作疯狗在乱犬。
现在观点不同了。
我知道你是特地的。
三更半夜不睡就为了做这样无聊的事 ？
说一声 。
想把我拆散是不是 ？
现在不是十个月前 。
你已经是过去式，
我才是现在式，
我才是未来式。
别再来烦我们了。
我不是你想象得那么弱。
你要说我抢你女朋友，
你要说我是第三者，
你要怎样说我，
我随你他妈的便。
我不在乎。
但别介入我们的生活。
我是第三者，
我抢你女朋友。
随你怎说。
反正我也精神失常了。
干他妈的。
yesterday was my school's form5 graduation day .
held at Hotel Park Royal .
it cost 40 bucks per person .
it was raining all long day early in the morning .
kinda sad day ??
nevermind ...
it's still a big day for me .
reached there by 10.30 morning .
saw lots of people .
everyone were extremely handsome today .
WoW !!!
took lots of picture .
but kinda lazy upload all of it =p
wanna watch then go my facebook profile ~ LOL ...
ceremony started at 11 something ...
skip the boring part ....
time to watch our 5G class's video .
tears burst out ??
no way ...
but i knew that my form teacher cried .
watching that video ...
i gonna miss every single crazy moment with those crazy guys .
ate alot after that .
especially the ice cream .
Haagen Daaz Ice cream =D
took more and more picture with most of them .
then leave at 3pm sharp .
heading to Pavilion for movie .
with dear dear .
watch R.E.D .
which means ....
R - retired
E - extremely
D - dangerous
funny but nice movie .
Bruce Willis is kinda humous =p
pasar malam after movie .
had our dinner there .
then fetch dear dear back .
tired day .
happy day .
enjoy every single moment now .
=D
fall sick again ~
damn it .
but good news is ~
MC tomorrow ... xD
1 more day holiday ~
tomorrow is going to be a big day for someone .
dear dear right ?
be confident dear ,
i know it's easy for you .
i will always be with you .
my fighting spirit is with you .
waiting for your good news tomorrow .
add oil ~
=]
feels better now .
didn't went to school for 2 days .
kinda feel like holiday-ing now ... xD
parent not here these coming 2 days too .
back to hometown to attend cousin's wedding dinner .
went to leisure mall's pasar malam just now with dear dear .
she brought me some home-made "Wu Tao Gou" .
just walked walked at there .
tea-drinking time =]
also known as "yam cha" ~
with Tam , SY and LC .
at station one .
ordered our favourite drink , watermelon =D
taste like water =.=
went back at 11 pm +
gonna rest well .
by the way ,
"Wu Tao Gou" are nice to eat =]
love you .
muacksssss .
sick man sick ...
high fever ...
damn it !!!
yesterday night was still fine .
but then felt cold this morning .
then i only knew i fell sick .
high fever ,
eye swollen ,
headache ...
body are so weak this few days .
i wonder what happen with me .
thanks dear for be with me .
thanks for taking care of me .
love you .
i said something when i sleep ?
i dunno what i said ,
but i think dear dear heard it right ?
still ,
thanks dear dear .
i love you .
不是不喜欢，
只是还没能习惯。
只是没想到，
时间竟会过得那么快。
呵呵，
最近都怎么了 ？
好像有点失常似的。
体力比不上以前 ？
什么屁话 ~
答应了自己就要做到。
相信自己 =]
最近很喜欢骂人“番薯”
看见不爽就开口。
还蛮过瘾下 ~
觉得生命有点儿戏，
随时随地可以走，
要珍惜。
最近可没什么大事发生。
蛮闷的说。
只知道这几天都没什么精神，
就只想睡觉。
最好就是睡到自然醒 ~
超爽的 ~
还有一个月 ？
现在才开始读书 =.=
懒叻 >.<
下星期六可说是我校的毕业典礼 ~
要穿 formal 衣叻 ~
我还没买 =.=
最近学校那些小的越来越窜了哦 ~
才没他们那么幼稚 ~
在班上跟一大班白痴一起废还好 xD
还有哦 ~
我看开了 ？
傻傻的。
有什么看开不看开。
做回自己就好，
才没那么得空去理那些无谓的人。
不知道。
颠颠傻傻就好。
开开心心就好。
skipped school for another day ~ xD
today schedule was totally full ~
went out early in the morning .
9.00 am ~ xD
fetch dear dear 1st ,
next is dym and apple ~
then the last is winnie .
they say my driving skill was great ~~
wakakaka ~ xD
had our breakfast at shamelin .
after that only went to time square .
reached there by 10.30 am .
bought movie tickets .
9 people 9 ticket ~
me , dear dear , jing , yun , dym , winnie , apple , sm and chicken ?
The Child's Eye 3D .
horror movie weh ~ xD
somemore its 3D ~
movie start at 12.20pm .
which mean we still had 1 hour more to hang out .
as dear dear say ~
i was "vibrating" my finger .
then the others played the dancing game .
played the Datona USA = linked driving game .
i won for the first round ~ xD
dear dear won the second round without my present .
movie started ~ xD
kinda excited .
dear dear hug me tightly during the movie ~ O.O
yet i still felt so cold =.=
we all had another programme after movie ~
Karaoke ~~ Karaoke ~~
dymphna ... made me speechless =X
she can just shout like mad when she saw some artist ~
everyone sang ~
me too =]
everyone went back after that .
but me and dear dear still got our next destination .
leisure mall pasar mall .
after an hour walk at there ,
then went to "cut steak" ~
western food for our dinner ~ xD
last year's tomorrow was the day we first know each other .
many thing happened within this year .
tired but happy .
i love you dear .
more and more .
muackssssss .
skipped school ...
finish exam adi wat ...
kinda lazy go to school =P
morning ...
something happened ??
went tuition for 2hours in the afternoon .
something happened also ...
don't mention about it .
drove from pudu to ampang .
with dear dear .
we were going to "9 wong yeah" and also pasar malam .
not much different .
still the same as last time .
saw Heng ...
talked lots of rubbish + funny thing ~
dear don't understand what we talking about ~ xD
then walked to pasar malam .
still the same as last time too =.=
had our dinner at there too .
just before we go back ,
brought her to my grandpa's house .
she said she scare before that .
but nothing happened too ...
still said my grandpa humous ~ xD
fetch her back home .
she said the toufu no one ate it .
she finished it ~ xD
here goes my day =P
exam are FINISHED !!!
finally ~~
after 3 week of battles ~
i am out of bullet >.<
everyone hope to score nice result ~
so do i ~
if result not good also nevermind ~
still got hope ~
=.=
went to time square with dear dear ~
watched movie ~
legend of the guardian ~
dear dear say this movie is better than those action movie ~ xD
the two aunty sitting beside us are so noisy =.=
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i am so worry about you recently ...
i am so scare something will happen to you ...
all i can do is just be at your side ...
supporting you ...
i know i am not the best in the world ~
but i will do my best for you ...
i love you ~
more and more ~
预考开始了。
我竟没有一点感觉，
却只想快点考完它。
虽然是很懒复习，
接下来要冲刺了。
对我来说，
预不预考都是一样，
把它当作平时考试就好了。
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跟 dear dear 谈到旅行，
若我们非常有钱的话，
先是上邮轮环绕世界一圈，
然后再去玩遍全世界。
看各种颜色的极光，
流星，彗星，行星 ~
现在叻，
和你先上云顶玩玩，
享受那儿的凉爽空气。
再去岛上，
住在别墅里，
吹海风，看日出。
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这几天都有着同样的幻想。
想一个人站在高山山峰上，
大声地喊，疯狂的喊……
把所有不忿的都喊出来。
喊完了，
只要你陪着我就足够了……
as usual ..
went to tuition this morning .
nothing special happen ...
chinese senimar at SinChew HQ .
went there with dear dear ~
start from 2pm to 4pm .
saw quite many friends there ...
seminar end ,
i went back alone .
dear dear father took her back house .
took almost 2 hour for me to reach home .
exhausted >.<
parent brought us out for dinner .
Sushi King .
saw TunJern there ~
i wonder what he doing there ~ xD
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trial starts tomorrow .
don't know what to say .
have no any feeling about it .
anyway , good luck to all candidate .
love you dear ~
muacksss .
8个月了...
一起坐在公园里...
回想起之前的我们...
傻傻的我们...
2009年的2月...
你就坐在我后面...
那是我们第一次的见面...
但那时我们是对方的陌生人...
2009年的8月...
在营中的我们再次相遇...
我们第二次的见面...
营里我们只有一句话的交谈...
心里开始存在着你的脸孔...
但仍然是陌生人..
2009年的10月...
朋友的相约...
使我们再一次的相遇...
之后我向我朋友得到你的号码...
是这邂逅...
把我们之间的红线拉近了...
也开始了我们的缘分...
开始也只是谈心事...
慢慢的便有了暧昧的感觉...
我周围的人，
最近都发生了不少事。
志康，
他婆婆去世了。
还没跟他谈谈，
不知道他会有什么事，
我猜他应该不会有什么大事。
捷易，
婆婆进院没事了，但爷爷却走了。
有什么想说的话，
找我们几个。
我们 24/7 都可以。
放心啦你，
所有事很快恢复正常的。
你对我们说那天在医院的情景。
我知道这感觉不好受。
当时我已经把头转向另外一边去了，
尝试压着自己的感觉。
成功了，
但却勾起了当晚的事……
在那的第一晚，
只剩我们几人在那，折元宝等等……
我问阿姨有没有外婆的个人照，
她望着我，眼泪流了下来，说：
其实外婆最疼的是你…
我知道，我一直都知道…
凌晨了，
全都睡了，我却只身坐在一角，
想走进去房间再看看外婆。
进去了，
却见外公早坐在那自言自语。
我站在门外，
听见了所有东西。
“你怎么能说走就走…”
“那些小的改天谁来照顾…”
“还记得我们以前怎么认识的吗…”
不想再听了，
只能跑去厕所洗洗脸让自己保持清醒。
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现在竟然连那两张1994年的照片也被我弄不见了。
我知道，
但也应该学习怎样习惯。
只是希望有人能够陪着我就够了。
1 more holiday for me ~
hooray ~~ !!!
coz i skipped school today ~ xD
i went for the driving this morning .
that's the reason why i didn't attend to school .
well ...
woke up early in the morning .
everything were well prepared and waiting for uncle .
uncle reached my house by 7.30am .
another girl was having the driving test together with me too .
skip the boring part ~
"skip ... skip ... skip ... "
my turn ~ O.0
i went on the car .
i feel nothing but my leg .
my leg were "vibrating" ... =.=
but i still pass all the test ~ xD
just waiting for the P licence now .
can drive now ,
but don't have car .
this is the main problem =.= ...
went time square yesterday .
camper's gathering .
although not much people ,
but i am still happy with it .
was having tuition in the morning .
both of us wore the same shirt .
then teacher make fun of we both =.=
kinda not enough sleep ><
feel sleepy during the class ...
"kara-ok" section ...
20+ people attend .
they knew who i am ,
but i don't know some of them =.=
go there and shout ?
i guess not ~
at first was sitting at aside with dear dear quietly ...
then they force to sing .
sing love song with dear dear ... T.T
one of them said want to punish us .
but nothing happened at the end ... xD
someone made a big mistake ~ xD
at first said sungai wang's GreenBox .
then change place to time square's Neway .
some more keep saying "sorry" to us ...
nevermind , i accept us apologize ~ xD
just joking ... nothing lah ,
we were still happy with it .
end at 5.50pm ..
most of them went to Miharja's autumn festival .
me , dear dear and the other just walked walked at time square .
i know dear dear was very tired ...
woke up so early in the morning ...
then do this and that ...
but still happy whenever be with you .
i love you dear dear ^^
那晚，
车子里。
经过某栋大楼，
勾起某种回忆。
一直告诉自己我很坚强。
一直对自己说自己一点也不弱。
我知道，
我自己在骗自己。
眼眶中徘徊的泪水，
泪水始终比空气重，
最后还是滑落了下来。
记得那时我问：
现在还有跟你爷爷婆婆拍照吗 ？
还好你的答案是有。
那晚我找遍全家的相簿，
才那两张照片。
1994 年拍的 。
不能做些什么，
只能收着。
没什么了。
过了就算了。
从忍者成长营回来了，
比起去年的美食营嘛，
各有各的好玩，
只是跟我去的人不一样罢了。
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星期三，
下了整天的雨。
七早八早就背着大书包出门了，
去了蒲种过夜。
应该是凌晨2点多睡吧 ？
我也不记得了。
星期四，
早起，梳洗，吃了早餐后就准备进营了。
今年的营疯狂多人。
去年的才 70+ ，
想不到今年的 250+ ，
我们俩都在同一组，
第六组，雷。
我们有8男8女，另加2女生辅导员。
讲座之后就开始游戏。
洗白白时间，
晚饭时间 ~ itatakimas ~
夜间游戏。
他们的游戏不错特别，
玩到蛮过瘾的说。
星期五，
全部朦胧胧的样子，根本就不够睡 =.=
跳早操，不过还是起不了什么作用 =.=
早饭后就开始游戏了。
开始精神了 xD
进贺来给讲座，
怎样都好过昨天的讲座，
呵呵。
下午就水战了。
全身没有一个地方不湿的。
够凉爽够冷 ~~
晚上，
侦探游戏，
100%学记自创，
赞 ！！！
全体营员被要求穿端庄的衣服。
有校花校草竞选，
我们俩也这样被自己的组员推上抬。
无辜+无奈的我们。
14组校花校草，选一组出来。
怎知我们就是那组。
真意外 xD
星期六，
根本不想起床 =.=
虽然是睡地上，但还是不想起身。
最后一天了咯，
离营前还是有玩游戏，
我们和其他4组都输了，
罚大扫除课室一间。
之后就是交流拍照时间。
拍了不少照片，
有些苯苯的学记最后一天才知道我们是真情侣 =.=
闭幕仪式了，
大家都开始走了，
很多学记都哭了。
淑宜都哭到眼睛红红了 =[
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不错的营，
我们的顽皮文静组员，
建霖，健雄，嘉濠，凯麒，政庆，楷荐。
加晶，丽绮，敏芬，艾媛，欣慧，嘉义，蕴微。
我们的漂亮辅导员。
淑宜，锦绣。
这3天2夜认识的朋友学记。
我会记得你们的。
我会怀念你们的。
successfully bought a new bag .
both of us bought the same bag .
love it ~
yeah !!!
went to Midvalley this morning .
reached there by 10 am .
O.O
had Mcdonald as our breakfast .
after that then started our "journey" ~ xD
saw lots of beg .
different style , different design , different price =.=
finally we bought the one from FOS ~
oh yeah !!!
bought dear dear a T-shirt .
it just cost rm20 after 50% discount .
wanna give her a surprise .
but too bad she found it out =.=
then she bought me a T-shirt too .
love you ~
went back at 3+pm from MidValley .
tired day ~
but still a happy day with dear dear .
muackssss .
school holiday started last saturday .
2 weeks holiday .
don't know what to do during the holiday .
LOL ~
went to KLCC with dear dear last saturday .
watched movie "grown ups" ~
so funny ~ xD
but the cinema hall was so cold ~
freezing inside =X
our primary objective went there is to find and buy beg .
found some begs there .
but then we decide to go Mid-Valley again for another beg-finding round .
went to the popular's bookfair as well .
not that much people .
saw my two daughter ~
WeiJing and blur MayYun ~ xD
sembilan bilah pisau ?
use to slice tomato ?
xD
that day was totally tired ~
but still a happy day with dear dear ~
love you ~
我那傻猪猪 ~
病了差不多整个星期终于病好了 ~
担心死我 ><
以为得了什么怪病 ~
现在好了就没事了。
连我也病倒了，
没什么大事，
只不过是个小伤风，
但却要医生给我一张 MC ~
自己放假 =)
学校都没什么大件事，
风平浪静的又一天了。
马来西亚53岁了哦 ~
国庆日快乐 xD
希望 1 Malaysia 不是只是说说而已啦。
actually today was a school day .
but i just skipped it .
xD
nothing to do early in the morning .
woke up then just continued my drama .
went out to find my dear dear .
feel so happy when saw her .
to bad something sad happened .
her money was stolen by someone .
dear dear so sad and angry ..
sorry i can't do anything but only stay beside you .
she told me she not feeling well ,
rupa-rupanya she fall sick .
heart pain =(
brought her back but her house had no one .
so we went out to have our lunch .
attent for driving lesson after that .
this time leg pain =.=
nothing much more happen .
still the same .
i love you more than i can say .
terpaksa dan dipaksa attent the chinese seminar ,
which held at Sentul .
today was "rush" ~
reached Pudu girl school by 6.20 early in the morning .
Guan Lin and YangYang were earlier than me .
saw dear dear ~
miss her ><
had a small chat with her .
we shared a bus with Dato' Onn , Cochrane Perkasa and Puterijaya to go there .
reached there by 7.30 morning .
saw lots of friends there .
the seminar started at 8.ooam sharp .
lots of thing happened too .
i'll skip the boring part .
"jump jump jump ... skip skip skip ..."
finally can went back at 4.30pm .
traffic jam ...
holy shyt ...
reached pudu by 5.30 ...
rushed to find dear dear ~
i promised to find her when i back ><
went to pasar malam with dear dear ~
tired but still happy to be with dear dear ><
muacksssss
23th of august ,
we have been together for 7 month .
what to say ...
we both are getting older ?
haha ...
my love to you is 7 times more than before .
maybe i just can't stop loving you ...
never hope so much ,
just hope that you are always be with me .
i am always there for you .
nothing can describe this ,
the strange feeling .
i am exhausted .
today's was our last game .
and also a hard game .
but at last we lose 56-59 .
they score at the last 2 SECOND !!!
nevermind ,
but it still a good and nice game .
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as i say ,
i'll discuss about the team in this post ,
each paragraph is describing each people .
your shooting is the best .
you never angry with us when we do something wrong .
you just ask us to do what are we suppose to do .
you are not only a good friend but a good player too .
your ball controlling skill is awesome .
you too never angry with us ,
although just say something behind us sometime .
but i am still happy to team up with you in this competition .
also thanks for willing to help us =]
you ,
you never listen to order ,
and just do what you are thinking .
you are still my friend , my teammate ,
although sometime i really not happy with you .
but this time you really done a great job .
don't forget what you promise me .
i know you really train hard for this competition .
i know you're injured ,
but your strenght bring you to the end of the competition .
now everything is over ,
and remember to rest well and take good care of your leg .
you are always my best friend in school .
jokes together , play together ...
we know what are each of us thinking right ?
we know what to do .
we never blame on each other .
i am happy for having you as my best friend and teammate .
you too ,
my best friend and teammate too .
nothing much to comment on you .
i know what you are doing .
but you're just lack of confidence .
hope you find back your confidence .
the blur one ,
i know you're playing competition for the first time .
i know you scare ~ haha ...
but we are still young right ?
(although you're older than me 1 year ~ =P)
there are still many chance for us to play in competition .
good luck for all of us .
the tall and skinny one ,
you get hurt easily o.o ~
i am so scare something will happen on you .
but i know you will be fine .
don't blame on yourself because of the mistake .
don't worry , be happy and healthy .
you the last one ,
concentrate more in the game ~ LOL .
don't keep on looking at the phone .
you too also lack of confidence ,
hope you find it back soon .
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about me ?
nothing much to say about .
haha ...
nevertheless ,
still happy to be part of the team .
cannot deny that i hate malaysia's system very much .
don't know why ,
but i just hate it !!!
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these few days weather are weird .
sudden hot , sudden cold .
most of my friend are sick .
me too =[
just take good care of ownself lah .
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about the team ...
i'll say about this in the coming post xD
回来了。
它回来了。
离我不久，
我以为能过得安心，
没想到，
终于都是回来了。
全都是我不想要的东西。
全都是我最讨厌的东西。
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我想清了，
有些话，
想从这告诉你们。
信和兴，
我们做兄弟快十年了是吗 ？
如果真的有那么一天，
如果，如果，
你们俩坐在一起，
而我却在远方望着你们。
答应帮我好好照顾我家人好不好 ？
易和信，
算算看你们几年朋友了 ？
这段友情，
你们舍得放弃吗 ？
总有一天大家都会毕业，
大家都会为自己生活而忙，
当有一天，
你们出来喝茶叙旧时，
少了我的踪影，我的声音，
你们会开心的笑，
你们会高唱阔谈吗 ？
婆，
如果这一天真的来了，
不要怪我能吗 ？
我已经尽了我的全部，
只愿你能替我保佑他们的平安就好了。
如果真的有这么一天，
我最不舍得的一定是你。
我想一生一世就照顾着你，
我想就这样疼你爱你，
我不想就这样丢下什么都不管就走掉，
我想实践我对你的承诺，
我不想离开你。
如果这是真的，
答应我.........
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该说得也说了，
也许想太多了。
我知道，
惊醒的感觉真得不好...
wow ...
today was extremely tired .
both my hand and leg muscle were in pain condition .
nothing special happen in school .
just feel sleepy and tired during lesson running .
due to the muslim are fasting now ,
school end at 12.35pm for the coming days .
went to time square alone to do something .
some crazy plan appear on my mind .
i better don't be crazy =.=
went back home first then only came out again .
out at 3.45pm .
riding bicycle .
ride from my house to her house .
i though i will took long time to reach her house .
who knew it just took me 20 minute ~ xD
don't know she feel SURPRISE or not when she saw me .
had our so called lunch around 4 something .
then we ride to Bandar Tun Razak park .
reached there by 6pm ,
then had a small walk with dear dear .
stayed up at there for 1 hour then only went back home .
crazy part ~ xD
helped her to take the bike from 5th floor to ground floor at first .
and helped her to take the bike from ground to 5th floor at last .
i think i will gain muscle if i done this more often .
xD
everything for me is nothing ,
when you are happy ,
when you are by my side .
婆婆，
你在上面还好吗 ？
过得开心吗 ？
有没有时时在看我这你最疼的傻孙子吗 ？
我又很多东西想告诉你想跟你讲。
你走了差不多一年半了，
这段期间内发生很多东西啊。
你知道吗 ？
离大考的日子越来越少了，
学校家里给很大压力，
我真得很想考好好的。
家人根本都不明白我，
不知道我想什么。
告诉他们也没用，
他们只会死板板的，
什么都不接受的，
家里有事就只会怪我这大儿子。
婆婆，
你带了我15年，
从我出世开始就把我带大。
记得我说过我长大后，
会找个很好很孝顺孙媳妇给你吗 ？
我找到了，
我很爱她，我很疼她，
可能是我用错了方法。
不知道，
最近常弄得她生我气。
也许是我没用，
不懂得该如何哄她，
不知道该如何疼她，
也许我真的不是个好男友。
她很好，
是我不好。
看见她生气的样子，
我害怕，
我害怕她就这样一直气我，
我害怕她就这样对我不理不睬，
我感觉到我的呼吸开始颤抖，
我知道泪水在眼眶徘徊，
我知道，
我错了。
告诉我该怎样做。
我觉得很无助，
有时很想哭，
但却不能。
那种感觉很辛苦，很难受。
我只是想她开心罢了。
但我却亲手把它搞成这样。
我没用。
我只是想像以前那样。
我真得很希望。
went to school as usual .
6 people were not in the class .
but the class were still noisy .
feel tired still .
although it passed two days from the match already .
maybe i didn't get enough rest ?
went to time square to meet up with dear dear .
had our lunch at McDonald .
then walked to Pavillion for movie .
"Inception"
dream within dream .
how amazing ...
i like it .
i like Leonardo diCarpio too .
thanks for everything dear .
really ...
凌晨，
车子里。
“泷，你做么？”
“我什么做么？”
“刚才大家在玩，你自己在那按电话，怎么了？”
“没什么啦，你看路驾你的车啦。”
“真的没？”
“......” （望着窗外）
我们三个又睡在草场上，
望着天空谈天。
我，
不知觉的睡着了。
只记得，
那晚的天空没有星星。
什么都没有，
空空的。
就像我。
我也记得，
星期二就是我们一起200天了。
世间真快...
200天了，
我们经历了不多，但也不少。
笑容和泪水...
开心和伤心...
我答应了自己某些东西，
自己知道这就好了。
complicated ...
maybe ...
wait till next time ,
i'll try to write out everything .
i know it isn't easy .
it's difficult but not impossible .
what is point for you to be a teenager ?
having a 18-years old physical body ,
not a 18-years old mature mind thinking but a 3-years old little kid thinking ?
think properly for your ownself .
things happen every second , every minute , everyday and every year .
"ken loong , don't leave me lah , i scare scare later i cry ah ~"
"nic , i bite you one ah ~"
"pan , what are you doing now ? pee pee or poo poo ?"
come on man ,
you have been living on this planet for 18 years since you were born ,
and yet you are still having a 3-years old small kid thinking ?
you never learn from your life , your experience .
what you know is just 3 simple thing .
eat , sleep , and play .
that's all you know ?
no wonder you are still like that .
"mummy , i want pee pee ~ help me take off my pants ~"
"daddy , i want the aeroplane ~ buy me lah buy me lah ~"
what is the point for finding me if you failed to chase a girl ?
go away far from me and find another girl .
am i a girl ?
then why the hell you find me ?
ask me teach you how to chase a girl ...
bullshit , dogshit , catshit , cowshit , all kind of shit ...
how am i going to teach you when i know nothing about that ?
if i know then i won't be single for that time .
international idiot .
use your brain abit .
is it your brain's size as same as a peanut ?
even the dinosaures's brain is bigger then a peanut .
what to say ?
what to do ?
if you don't want then just tell us face to face .
don't go and disturb other people by saying :
don't want lah , don't like this lah ....
all sort of nonsence .
you wanna know why the hell you can't find a girlfriend ?
want me to tell you ?
okay ...
you are so childish .
girl's thinking is already more mature than a boy ,
and yet you are still that childish .
i warn you ,
if you come to me again and ask the same stupid idiot bastard question ,
i swear i will FUCK you .
think yourself .
3-years old kid ...
"mummy daddy , big kor kor say i am 3-years old small kid wo ~"
"wuuuu~ wuuuu~ wuuuu~"
there was still a game today .
we played .
and we lose .
70-53 .
17 points .
and Adrain "graduated" too ~
O.o
although it's sad ,
satisfied with the result ,
but not "some" of our teammate .
woke up early in the morning .
went out and meet up with dear dear nearby her house .
had boiled egg and steamed bread as our breakfast .
heading to Pandan Jaya railway station .
meet with them .
we took part in basketball competition and today was the first game .
looks like everyone were well prepared .
dear dear followed together .
love you ~ muackssssss ~
13 people , 1 van .
still manage to sit into the van ~ xD
but the price for van hell expensive ....
double way trip cost us rm150 ...
everyone have to pay rm13++ .
what the XXXXXXX ....
reached there ,
no one was there except uncle chai ~
since we had nothing to do .
let's warm up ~ xD
we played the first game of the day .
we won the game .
56-52 .
4 points .
Jordy and Adrian gila pro ~ xD
went back to maluri ,
had our lunch at mamak ,
as the celebration of winning the game =.=
dear dear and i gone first .
next station ,
LEISURE MALL .
watched movie ,
socceress's apparentis ~ (cincai lah ... )
darn funny this movie ~
after movie was baskin robin .
we bought the small one which cost rm18.50 .
the price was after discount for 31 % .
sat there and enjoyed our ice cream .
took lots of photo with dear dear also .
today was not that tired but extremely exhausted .
but still happy that we won the game ,
and also had a nice and happy day with dear dear ~
driving ??
piece of cake ~ xD
it's easy .
hope can get my driving licence as fast as posible .
don't wanna depents on the stupid RapidKL bus service !!!!
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went to leisure mall's pasar malam ,
too bad it's raining .
we both had a walk inside there .
walked into popular bookstore and heading to the traveling part .
i randomly picked a book and opened the index .
i covered her eye , asked her to point at any place randomly .
she pointed 5 places .
i said : we will travel to the place you point just now in coming future .
finally the rain stopped ,
went out and walked at the pasar malam .
saw many sexy "angels" ~
they were giving out the free online game CD to promote the game .
went back at 10 .
sent dear dear back first then went back my own house .
reached about 10.30pm .
tired but happy ,
satisfied with this day .
有人说：
当某人在你面前哭时，证明你真的拿走了他的心。
我不坚强，
我也不轻易落泪。
只是想不开心时，
有个小肩膀可以靠，
这就够了。
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最近在想，
如果一切的梦都是真的，
如果有一天我真的走了。
那我是不是背叛了我们之间的承诺 ？
我并不怕，
我只怕以后再也见不到你。
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累了，
就问自己一句，
健泷，
你还能走多远 ？
the same dream ,
the same night ,
the same feeling ,
the same fear .
it's still the same .
it is haunting behind me.
maybe this is the faith ?
don't worry dear ,
it's gonna be ok ,
i am fine and i am nothing .
don't be so worry .
as usual ,
went to taman nirwana for basketball ,
from morning to afternoon .
kinda tired .
MBS was having family day ,
dear and her gang were going but i am not .
someone said the things there were so so so so expensive .
was heading to central market to find my dear dear ,
after finished playing basketball .
finally found her ,
miss her so much >.<
middle part was boring and nothing speial ~~
*jump jump jump*
went to taman bandar tun razak .
just wanted to go there with dear ,
because we both went all shopping center but not park .
we reached there by 5.15pm .
we walked and we finished 90% of the park .
took a rest .
we took 70+ pictures just in half an hour .
dear dear was so so so CUTE >.<
went back at 7.30pm .
her father came and took her ,
and i walked back home .
tired ,
but still happy to be with dear almost whole day .
thanks ~
love you ^^
time flies away so fast ...
6 months already .
have been together for 6 months .
love dear more and more and more ...
muacksssss .
today's school was normal , nothing special .
except we changed our history teacher , the 4th teacher .
she was not that bad in my opinion ,
although her behaviour and attitude were kinda "special" ...
celebrate our 6 months aniversary ,
we went pavilion for movie .
despicable me .
those yellow tinggy and the kids were so god darn cute .
"oh ... it's so fluffy ~"
nice and touch endding .
we both enjoy the movie .
but we saw something ~
a pair of couple sitted beside us .
when the movie was running ,
they kept on kissing ...
i looked at them ,
and counted how many time they kiss .
more than 8 times i think ...
went back to time square .
nothing to do , just waste our time there .
went back at 7pm .
tired but happy day .
today's school day was totally boring ...
what's the point for bringing everything to school ,
when there was not studying at all but 2 talk ?
i brough every book include my sport shirt ,
but they told me that there were 2 talk today .
what the crap ...
rushed to time square to collect up something after school .
meet Kwan Sing and Ekhwan there .
together we walked to perijaya from ts .
by the time we stepped out from time square's building ,
it rain ...
the very strong one ...
we had no choice but to walk to there =.=
dunno dear dear happy or not when i gave her the "present" .
she seem so happy ~
went to pasar malam after tuition ended .
walked and walked and walked ...
went back home ~
tired ~
thanks dear dear ~
muacksssss
this was the sixth time ,
i had the same dream again .
woke from the dream in the middle of the night ,
lay awake on the bed for 15 minutes .
then opened the window and looked at the night sky .
it's so quite ...
dare not to sleep again .
didn't wish to dream the same dream again .
i can't take it anymore .
didn't hope much ,
just hope you'll always be with me .
monday ,
basically there was nothing special happened during school .
just get scolded by BM teacher .
maybe her "cousin" came and visited her ?
went to time square with Kwan Sing after school .
today was our school's sport day .
this was the last sport day for me .
grabbed 1 medal only .
bronze - 60m .
although i am sentosa's president .
but i didn't care at all .
this year was the last year ,
and i really don't feel like wanna take part in any game .
but the teacher just wrote my name and passed it up .
those young one were fabulous .
grabbed lots of medals and the name of best athelet .
hope they will bring Sentosa to the victory after we have gone .
the event gonna end soon .
price giving ceremony at last .
it's time to announce the overall champion .
AMAN was the champion and Sentosa was second .
congratz to AMAN .
everything ends today .
gonna study hard .
SENTOSA ARE ALWAYS THE CHAMPION .
SENTOSA ROCKS !!!!
went to time square after school yesterday .
found the thing i want .
walked and walked and walked .
i found it but i didn't bought it .
i will buy it next week .
went to Digi Specialize shop .
want to find out what's happening with my phone .
the guy fixed it .
and now i can on my facebook with my phone .
was raining heavily outside about 5.30pm yesterday .
i can't went to find dear , she can't too .
rain stopped around 6.30pm .
so we both went to Jusco Maluri for a little walk .
spent our time there till 8pm and went back .
that's the day .
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went school today but didn't study .
today was Sukan Balapan .
many of us were heading to Mini stadium at SMK Seri Permaisuri .
i took part in 100 meter run .
teacher forced me to run =.=
due to the reason i never stay back for training .
nothing much ,
went to tuition after that .
then pasar malam with dear .
first time went to that pasar malam .
quite long =.=
walked walked walked .
went back at 9 something by taking a cab .
still worried bout dear ,
she gonna walk back home alone ,
although it is 5 minute journey .
phew ,
today was tired .
重遇小学朋友。
一段谈话。
“怎么挂着那副想不开的样子 ？”
“哦 ？”
“以前的你不是这样的啊。”
“以前的我 ？”
“是啊，以前的你都玩世不恭，还很花心叻。”
“不知道，怎么了 ？”
“没什么，就觉得你变了另外一个人。”
“...”
“想开点吧。”
“哦 ...”
仔细想想，
她确实说得没错。
我以前的确是个这样的人。
变了，
那又怎么样 ？
我又不是变了那十恶不赦的人。
不多，
只是性格，态度和观点罢了。
我花心 ？
何谓花心 ？
真可笑。
我玩世不恭 ？
这我倒承认。
我再也不是以前你口中的那小弟弟了。
对，
我变了。
finally basketball thing is settle .
we have 11 members in the team .
but i still didn't hope so much .
i just want to play .
that's all .
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went to Stadium Bukit Jalil in saturday and sunday .
SilkyGirl cheerleading competition .
went there to support dear school's team .
MURIEL ~
i had a hair cut at last saturday .
changed my hairstyle (not that much also) .
quite nice .
at least better than last time .
i reached Stadium Bukit Jalil by 1pm somthing last saturday .
gonna give dear a surprise .
she was so concern about the other team's performance ,
and she didn't realize i was behind her .
by the time she saw me ,
she stunned .
"how come you are here and what happen to your hair ?"
"give you a surprise mah ~ hehe ~"
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stayed up late at night yesterday .
watched WORLD CUP FINAL !!!
i stand at Netherland's side but Spain is the champion .
so boring lah this final game .
Spain score the first and only goal just 5 minute before the game end .
wanna eat that Ah Paul the octopus adi ...
dear dear , bring you go eat together ~
ok ??
泪水徘徊在眼眶边缘。
没想到泪水比空气更重，
滴了下来。
今晚的我会是如何入睡。
为什么每次都要这样，
为什么每次错的都是我，
为什么每次担心的都是我，
为什么要这样子，
我很讨厌这样的情况。
你不喜欢，
而我也不想发生这样的事。
但是他们要这样。
我真的不知道能做些什么。
我只是想和你一起久一点就那么简单，
没想到竟换来这样的结果。
我一直在等，
等你的信息还是电话来。
我不敢睡，
怕你的信息来了，我睡了，没回你。
但却等不到任何一封。
终于忍不住，
给你发了封简讯。
你那冷淡的回复，
让我知道你还是不爽不开心。
我所能做的都做了，
能说的都说完了，
不过我真的不想发生这样的事。
对不起。
早上的云真漂亮，
下午的雨真凄美。
“你跟她没事吧 ？”
“啊，没事。”
一句话把我从梦中打醒，
不该再这样了，
该上课了。
一直在反复的想，
你说的习惯，
你说的害怕，
你说的在乎，
你说的一切。
我毫无表情，
开心还是伤心 ？
当时还是个未知数。
我望着荧幕，
愣住了。
不知道该说些什么，
也不知道怎么开口。
拨了通电话过去，
没什么，
就想在睡前再听听你声音。
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等等啦，
说了有特别的礼物。
别再问那是什么东东来的 >.<
傻猪，
我答应你，
我会留在你身边。
我再也不想听见，
我再也不想看见，
我再也不想知道，
这样我快崩溃了。
有人曾经告诉我 ，
每个人的存在一定是有原因的。
上帝一定会给每人一份特殊的礼物。
went tuition this morning ,
history class ...
due to the reason that i just slept 2 hours for yesterday .
i was so "hot" ...
=X
bleeding out from nose non-stop .
i cough ,
then the blood came out from mouth .
so ....
excited ?
went to time square after finished tuition .
dear left me alone ... T.T
just joking ...
she had to have lunch with her family .
she asked me to eat with them but i rejected .
after that she sms-ed me and said ,
"why didn't bring Kensonz along to eat together ? "
dear's father were taking them for movie .
Toy Story 3 .
her brother was a clever boy .
he booked ticket but didn't remember the booking number .
dear kept on asking me wanna watch with them or not =.=
i went to Pav to find dear and i saw her parent .
uncle asked me the same thing again .
DON'T WANT ~ xD
just walk walk there .
then went back after dear went into the cinema .
tired but happy =)
yesterday night was fabulous ,
i just slept for 2 hours ,
then went to tuition .
first ,
i went to Soon's house then we decided to go Steven's Corner .
to watch football match .
yesterday was Germany Vs Argentina .
Germany scored the first goal in the first 3 minute right after the match start .
the people there were shouting like nobody business .
people were enjoying watching the match but i didn't .
something happened and it thrilled me .
the final result for the match is ...
Germany 4-0 Argentina .
bye bye Argentina ~ xD
watched the second match as well .
Paraguay Vs Spain .
this game was not as exciting as just now's match .
both of the goalkeeper block the penalty kick .
boring ... zzz ~
Spain finally scored at 83 minute .
and this bring Spain into the semi-final .
we all were so sleepy and tired .
don't care so much already ,
just sleep at the living hall .
xD
night and adios .
went to the last 6 hour kursus just before i get my L licence .
but we only attend the kursus for 3 hour .
we paid rm10 then cabut lari .
i rather sit for the another 3 hour =.=
if it is fast ,
i think i can get my P driving licence by sept .
dunno leh ....
i hope to get my licence as soon as posible .
I WANT TO DRIVE !
due to my fever ,
today was a holiday to me .
but not to the others .
xD
actually i was getting better after i had a nice sleep yesterday .
but for safety ,
i had no choice but to visit the nearest clinic here .
today was also dear's school open day .
her result was not too bad .
at least better than the others .
two of us missed the first add-math revision class .
so we planned to go for the second class .
we reached there by 6.25pm and we thought we were late .
who knows that the second class cancel .
we both looked at each other and ........ =X
went to leisure mall's pasar malam .
saw Tam , Sc and Lc .
walk walk walk ...
went to Pandan Indah to yamcha .
drink till 12+ am .
first fetch Lc back then four of us went to Kar Thye house .
he is flying to Sabah tomorrow to continue his study .
well ,
Bon Voyage and take care .
i reached home by 1am sharp .
thanks to Sc for fetch me back ,
although you still had to go back Setapak i think .
today's match ,
Brazil Vs Netherlands .
and the result ,
Brazil lose 1-2 to Netherlands .
yea great ...
i am sick right now .
not feeling that well ...
today was school open day .
parent were invited to school to collect their son's report card .
same as my other fellow friends ,
my mother came and collect my report card for me .
well ,
my result was not that bad .
4,3,2,1 ~
4A , 3B , 2C and 1D ...
get number 7 in my class .
stayed at school for awhile after my mother gone .
went to cyber cafe after that .
i felt so cold but my body was so hot .
then i only knew that i was having a fever .
the serious one .
dear brought me to the nearest clinic to buy some medi .
tuition time ,
i was so so so cold until i can't stand for the cold .
i borrowed Woon's extra shirt to wear ,
but no use .
went back home after tuition finished ,
it was raining heavily .
it took 1 hour for me to reach home .
wasting my time there ...
gonna rest soon ,
not going to school tomorrow .
holiday ~ xD
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to :
APPLE CHUA YING YI ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
wish you have a nice day and always stay happy .
昨晚的谈话，
我很冷静。
我知道。
傻猪，
干吗跟我说对不起？
你没有对不起我。
你说为什么值得我对你好，
你说凭什么去得到我的爱，
你说为什么能让我那么爱你，
你说我当初不应该追你。
你错了。
为什么？
就凭“我爱你”三个字。
你说你是我的负担，
你错了。
你不是，
你是我的喜怒哀乐。
就算是我的负担，
我也扛得起。
既然找到了一个我爱的女生，
我就不会轻易让你走。
既然找我了一个爱我的女生，
我也不会贸然离开你。
我已经习惯了有你的日子，
如果有天你走了，
我真的不知我该怎么办。
我们大家手牵着手，
都挨过了半年了，
我从不后悔爱上你。
种种事情的发生，
我知道我变了，
变得更爱你了。
我知道你生气。
我真得很对不起。
你清楚我是个怎样的人，
我只是关心你，
但却过于关心。
只是想知道事情的原因，
生气我就告诉我嘛，
大家不是说好了吗？
也许我不是个很好的男朋友，
也许我是个很失败的男朋友。
我真的有去学，
学怎样去哄自己的女朋友。
但每次看见这种情形，
我脑子空了，
根本想不出任何一个方法来哄回你，
我根本不知所措。
一个不会哄女朋友的男生，
有什么资格去当一个好的男朋友 ？
你知道我对你是怎样的。
我最疼的是你。
我最爱的是你。
我最想的也是你。
我不曾没想过要骂你怪你，
只是想过要怎样逗你哄你。
我把你看得比我自己重，
因为我不想人家看低你。
我被人看低没关系，
但我就不想我女朋友被人看低。
我不想发生任何可以破坏我们感情的事，
所以我一直学，一直比较。
因为我不想有人说你的男朋友为什么那么差。
但有时累了，
什么都不要，
只是要你的关心，
简简单单的关心就已经足够了。
只想你开心比我多。
今天没补高数，
算了。
改天再补回，
到处去走走算了吧。
经过书局，
看见两爷孙。
看得出爷爷还蛮疼他那孙子的。
孩子们小时候，
最照顾关心他们的并不是父母，
但却是祖父母。
我在一个这样的家庭长大，
但对于其他小孩，
我不知道。
小时候生病，
外婆总是最担心的那个。
不管多远路，
太阳多猛烈，
她就是这样背着我走去诊所。
三更半夜不睡就为了照顾自己的孙子。
孙子病好了，
外婆的心头大石也放下了。
小时候，
外婆买了本图画字典给我。
当时我还小，
为了完成美术功课，
就把外婆当天买回来的图画字典剪烂，
把里面的图片剪出来。
外婆见了，
她没骂我，
反而在另一天买了本新的回来。
小时候读书，
忘了带书上课，
一通电话回家，
外婆翻遍整间屋子也帮我找出那本书，
之后就赶过来学校交给我。
小时候，
外婆常怕我吃不饱。
每个晚餐都煮了很多我爱吃的酸辣排骨。
但每次都被我清光了。
她还笑着说：
“没关系，吃多点吧，明天我再煮过。”
小时候，
我成绩不好，
外婆却就走出了去，
却在很迟才回来。
回来是我能很清晰看得见她脸上的疲累。
但她说她不累，还笑说：
“我帮你找了一个很好的补习老师，下星期开始补习。”
我知道，
现在的你每天在天上，
趴在云朵上面，
看着我每天做的傻事，
在开心的笑我这傻孙子。
小时候，
不懂得感恩，
不懂得道谢。
知道了，
却不敢。
等到现在，
没机会了。
打开手掌，
数手指....
一，二，三，四，五，
我们一起五个月了啊 ~
时间过得还真快。
不理旁观者的批评，
只要我们过得开心快乐就好了。
聪明的人都不适合谈恋爱，
因为堕入爱河的人都是笨的。
整天只会说我傻，
傻傻的我不好吗？
呵呵 ~
几乎我有很多坏习惯要改哦 ？
答应你，
我改完它~
我想要得不多，
只要你在我身边就够了。
只要每天能见你就够了。
不知道，
是自己太过分了，
还是什么 。
最近动不动就把她弄气了。
看着你气了，
我急了，慌了，
不知所措 。
口中能说的只有那几句，
根本不知道还能说什么了，
也许我还不会哄女生吧。
你看得见我打在键盘上的字，
却看不见我掉在键盘上的泪。
假期完了，
明天睡醒，
又是一个不同的早上了。
短短两个星期，
过得充实，
过得开心，
谢谢傻猪猪，
每天都陪着我。
我不晓得你开心没，
但我也已经做了我的最好去让你开心。
谢谢你，
傻猪猪。
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昨晚出去吃晚餐，
和外公他们。
用餐完毕了，
观赏着各位用餐的姿态。
看见了外公，
愣住了。
时隔一年，
我也没什么了，
只是偶尔会想起。
泪水心中滴。
几十年的感情，
说短不短，说长也不长。
大家一起经历多少风波，
大家一起挨过多少苦头。
外公他虽说不在乎，
但是回忆还是在的。
眼前种种的现象，
足以证明。
我，
很失败。
也许我唯一的优点，
也是我唯一的缺点。
时间久了，
我的优点再也不是优点了，
而是一个不能挽回的缺点。
付出的和得到的回报的是平等的，
但这回报往往却不是我想要的。
我也是平常人，
我也有七情六欲。
我也想学其他人一样，
每天无忧无虑，
每天快快乐乐。
我一直都很在乎你。
但我还可以做什么 ？
即生瑜，何生亮 ？
“有没有想过我喜欢你什么 ？”
“我自己知道自己没什么好 。”
“傻，蠢，可爱 。”
“那如果有天我不可爱了，那就不要我了哦 ？”
“你一辈子都那么可爱 。”
这一切并不是感觉 ，
我知道 。
也许当初是 ，
但现在不是 。
既然做了决定 ，
我就不会后悔 ，
我也从不后悔 。
你的害怕 ，
是因为你在乎 ，
我有种说不出的快乐 。
需要我的时候就告诉我 ，
我会以最快的速度来到你面前 。
went to orphanage yesterday morning .
with dear dear and her friend .
the children there were so active .
i was enjoy playing with those children .
but feel so sad about them .
nevermind ,
hope can visit them again next time .
heading to leisure mall's WongKok after that .
had our lunch at there .
got BIG BIG MILKTEA !!!
7 person but still cant finish it =.=
after bring dear dear home ,
i went to Ampang to have my dinner with my two brother .
they belanja me eat ~ xD
korean BBQ steamboat buffet !!!
overnight at Heng's house .
tired but happy .
today ,
a big day for me .
i am officially 17 today .
my cough is getting better .
recovering .
exam finally finish .
gonna enjoy my coming holiday .
celebrating Teacher's Day this friday .
two more days to go .
our class are doing drama .
but still haven done anything yet .
many of them do not co-operate with me .
don't know to do about this .
don't know why or what happen ,
not in the mood today .
finish the exam paper as fast as i can .
just wish that the time could pass faster .
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it raining heavily this afternoon .
i wonder what or who makes god angry ?
feel like want to have a walk under the rain .
anyone ?
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everything can just happen in a single minute .
appreciate every single minute .
cannot be deny that everything he write is true .
i experienced it before and i totally agree with him .
but i am getting better and better now .
don't ask me why or what happen .
i won't tell .
just let me keep it as a secret .
我喜欢雨天。
我喜欢雨天的天色。
我喜欢雨天。
因为没人知道我在流泪。
蔚蓝中带点灰暗。
灰暗中带点忧郁。
忧郁中带点悲伤。
悲伤中带点思念。
豆大的雨滴打在我每寸肌肤上，
不觉得冷，
尝尽每颗雨滴的味道。
酸，苦，咸，尽有。
但却找不出甜的味道。
你睡了一下，
我望着你，
写了几行字。
看着你那个样子，
你说你没有事，
我不信。
试着去哄你，
却没得到任何东西。
你的无动于衷，
使泪水在眼眶徘徊。
不知道 ，
觉得我的咳嗽慢慢好了 。
不知道到底是怎么回事 ？
也许只是心理作用 ？
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最近大家都累了 。
都在忙考试对吧 ？
大家加油吧 。
还都几天就过了 。
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你啊 ~
要好好照顾自己知道没 ？
别每次都把自己弄得那么累 。
我心疼啊 ~
明天卫塞节 ，
公共假期叻 。
我看还是不能和她一起过啦 。
没关系啦 ，
习惯就好 。
女人永远也不知道
男人为什么要学会坚强 ？
因为他们自己知道，
他们虽然外表坚强，
但内心很脆弱，
他们永远想让自己身边的她觉得自己是最棒的。
4 more days to suffer .
4 more papers to go .
gonna celebrate immediately after exam finish ~
xD
math and add-math ...
was dealing with those numbers these two days .
numbers still are running here and there in my mind now .
now they are gone officially.
xD
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can't really sleep since my cough is getting worse and worse .
i wonder when am i fully recover from coughing ?
still coughing now .
=(
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never judge a book by its cover .
same to people too .
never judge a person by its look .
刚刚的通话，
我 ......
心跳加快，
呼吸加快，
气喘回来了。
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人最大的困难是认识自己，
最容易的也是认识自己
很多时候，
我们认不清自己，
只因为我们把自己放在了一
给了自己一个错觉。
最近的你怎么了 ？
你醒醒啊，
这些只是场意外，
再难再辛苦的都一起挨过了，
但为什么这次就这样倒下 ？
人说哭可以抒情，
当你眼泪忍不住要流出来的时候，
睁大眼睛，
千万别眨
你会看到世界由清晰变模糊的全过程，
心会在你泪水落下的那一刻变得清澈明晰。
我不想看见你这样，
我想看的只是开心的笑容。
既然你答应我这样了，
但为什么总是要食言？
你说这是感觉，
不能解释。
但我也答应自己要你每天快乐，
自己再累也没所谓，
就算全世界的人针对我觉得我野蛮，
我不管，
就让我野蛮这唯一一次，
我要的只是你离开这感觉。
你的没主见，
我不介意。
但你的判断能力决定能力呢？
去了哪 ？
在哪不见就会到那里找啊。
你自己也会说，
但为什么你做不到 ？
我并不是骂你，怪你，职责你 ~
是担心你，
不放心你，
我比自己还更担心你。
比自己还更不放心你。
你知道我的。
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开，
爱能不能够简简单单______________ 北风刮来长发散夕阳短暂落西山 独坐窗前观夜雨夜阑人静在想你
yesh ~
today's BM paper ~
crap =.=
tomorrow is the last paper for this week ~
gonna celebrate first ~
xD
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today may 20 ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~
my friend Chong Fah Zhing ~
xD
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today's date is so special ~
may 20 ~
dear dear ~
520 ~forever and ever ~♥ every morning i wake up and i realize ♥♥ i love you more than the day before ♥♥ just wish to see your smile again ♥♥ every night just before i sleep ♥
2 subject finish ~
history and physics ~
8 more days to go ~
8 more days to suffer ~
tomorrow BM paper ~
dunno what to study =.=
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went to Midah's McDonald with after school end .
had our lunch there .
teach her add math there too .
really wanna find a wall and bang on it ...
really dunno what to say ...
dunno should be happy or sad ...
she make me so ...
SPEECHLESS ~
really wanna bang wall die =.=
but i bang on the table .
still the same ?
xD
i know you very tired lah ~
just do that 2 chapter for 3 hour+ ~
i sayang balik ~
muackssss ^^
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for those who are examing .
all the best .
wish you all luck .
exam started today .
history paper first =.=
"oh my god ~ "
"oh your god ~ "
"macam tak pernah nampak ~ "
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went to sunshine beach after school end .
meet dear dear there .
had our lunch there too .
she is not happy ><
don't worry ~
be happy =)
was planning to go F4 biology class ~
full ady ~
so we didn't go =.=
wait for 1 hour ~
then go F5's biology class .
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dear dear ...
sorry for just now .
really really sorry .
>.<
1st time was brother .
2nd time was father .
i wonder who is the next ?
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dear dear ,
thanks for these two day .
love you .
muacksssss .
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today was tired .
went perijaya with dear after add math class end .
took a snap there .
just close my eye actually ,
but not really sleep .
was thinking about something .
i guess you know what is on my mind .
right ?
as usual ,
go school today .
not feeling well .
sleep almost all the day at school .
went back house after chinese clas end .
meet dear dear at jusco .
heading to martin for add math class .
mana tau full ady ~
went there but didn't masuk class =.=
watch Thomas Cup at Jusco Maluri .
Malaysia versus China ...
although i am standing at Malaysia's side .
but no need see also know what is the result lah ~
went pasar malam walk walk ~
dear dear buy "drinks" for me ~
Wong Lou Kat is so darn pahit =.=
beh tahan liao ~
sambil makan gula-gula sambil minum .
to balance back the taste .
><
basketball time ~
just go there play play only ~
to sweat ~ xD
最近 ，
反复不定 。
一分钟前说这 ，
一分钟后可能不是了 。
最近 ，
心跳得更频密了 。
我听得出 ，
怦怦声从胸口中发出来 。
不知道 ，
最近太多事了 。
也许是我太忙 ？
it always rain lately .
and it's raining again this morning .
i like the sky .
cloudy dark blue sky .
i saw it .
some kind of feeling ...
dunno what to say about it .
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went back house immediately after school finish .
today was as same as every wednesday .
so good yet so bad this feeling .
never imagine that it would be like this .
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wanted to climb tree .
sitting on the tree , eating fruit ,
and looking at the grassland , the big green field .
i used to do this .
no point for looking back .
no point for regreting .
everything has changed .
never regret moving from there to here .
i ain't moving back there anymore .
althought it gave me a happy yet short memory .
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i love my life now .
it's my life .
should say ,
i love her more than anything .
i care because i scare .
i scare because i care .
有种感觉 ，
不知道该怎么说 。
也许是甜甜的 ？
你总是最清楚我 。
而也是最相信我 。
既然你不想说 ，
那就别说 ，
我尊重你的决定 。
有些事 ，
也许是我做得不够好 。
我自己也不知道 。
我喜欢下雨 。
观赏雨景可说是我其中一个嗜好 。
有时就喜欢坐在窗前 ，
望着窗外的雨景 。
下雨时真美 。
就像你 。
我喜欢下雨感觉 。
豆大的雨水就像眼泪 。
每颗打在玻璃窗上的雨水都会响 。
每场雨 ，
每个雨景 ，
都会让我想起你 。
今早 ，
这里下起了大雨 。
我又情不自禁地想起了你 。
当时真想和你在一起 。
i suppose to attend a competition yesterday .
but i am not going due to some reason .
anyway ,
congratz for those winner .
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went to watch Ip Man 2 with dear dear .
18 SG leh that movie ~
but still can masuk ~ xD
thanks to the malay who checked our ticket .
and thanks to May Mei helped us bought ticket .
walked walked at time square after the movie .
went back at 6 pm sharp from there .
reached home at 7 pm .
felt like i had a long long journey on the way back .
going out again after i jst reached home .
go to leisure mall for dinner .
SAKAE SUSHI ~ xD
saw HoWenYi there ,
the sakai who owe still owe me SUSHI ~ =P
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gonna sleep downstaire but not my room tonight .
Ps2 is at downstaire ~ xD
just back from outside again ~
before half an hour ago ~
exhausted but fun and happy .
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went pasar malam after tuition ,
just walking and walking around there .
finally meet Tam and LC .
was heading to Tam's car ,
saw something or someone .
honestly ,
had a bad feeling about this .
went pertama's basketball court .
Tam fetch us ~ xD
just went there play play for fun only .
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she is so busy recently .
haiz ... too bad ...
but no choice .
just do what you like .
just be happy everytime .
i will always support you and be with you .
