camp ~

just came back from camp ,
3 days 2 nights ...
tired ...
but it's fun ~

it makes me forget something bad ,
but it also makes me recall back lots of bad memories ...

anyway ,
here are some picture to share ~
well ... enjoy yourself ~

KenLoong , KahYan , Nicholas

俞浈 and KenLoong

SuRong lenglui leh ...
is my mammi ^^
i am the only one with the cream on my face at that night .
and lots of eyes are looking at me =.=

My lenglui mammi again ^^


this is my team ~
front : KenLoong (team leader) , KokWah , YongHui , KahYan
back : WenHui , KahYee , YeeWen , KahYan

Lastly ,
this guy ...
rawang boy ~
钟进贺 ~
i never imagine i will see him ~
somemore take photo with him ~
xD

after came back from the camp ,

the same problem i need to face again ...

i really don't want to suffer anymore ,

i am suffer enough ~

i wish , i really really wish to face it by myself ,

but escape from it is my final choice ...

i am too coward ,

i dare not to do this to you ...

because i'm still love you .

H1N1 =.=

i promise this stupid kaimui to update something to let her see ~~
but now i have no time ~~
next time lah ~~
i sure update one ~
haha ~~

i will not at home for 2/3 days ~
going camp ~
haha ~~

lastly ,
my school got virus adi !!!
A(H1N1) pulak ~~
listen dao also sien ~
=X

everyone know A(H1N1) what means ??
haha ~~~
dunno leh ??

A(H1N1) >>>>>>>>>> abang , hotdog satu nugget satu ~~ xD

what a funny post =.=

random ~

everytime whem i listening to this song ,
i have a feeling ,
a feeling that is hard to describe ...
but i know it's my true feel ...

the same thing run through my mind every night .
i should empty my mind .
but i know i dare not to do this .

by the way ,
here's another "funny" story to share :

kesian that fishy lah ~ xD
this "fishkiller" coldblood punya ~
should stop saying this adi ,
if not ,
the next creature disappear in this world maybe is me ~~
=X

i'll be fine ...

don't know why these few day suddenly love to listen to this song ,
listening this song repeatly ,
althought other people say it feels sad and emo ...
but this song suits me the best .

the same thing happen in everynight ,
i'm waiting something ,
i'm missing someone ,
lots of memories in my mind ,
especially the sweet memories between you and me ...
there is no point to think about this anymore ,
time won't flow back ...
i have to keep going ,
i can't just stand at the same place ...
perhaps something or someone could bring me away from here ~

i'll be fine ...
really ...

1.53 am ~

In order to make me live better ,
a harsh decision must been made .

unless you hate someone that you love ,
otherwise the person's figure will remain in our heart .
but i do not have the courage to hate you ,
i have no any reason to hate you ,
because i don't want to forget you .
and because i love you .
picture shows thousand word ,
if you ever had a chance to see my drawing ,
then you will know how i feel .

gemini are always a two-sided person ,
no one really understand them .
they will never understand how a gemini feels .

my heart is just like a steel iron door .
there is no any other way to broke into this door .
only the one with the key will open this door and free the soul .
but it's not you ......
1.53 am ,
what else in my mind ?

stars ...

i like starry night ,
i like to look at the star ...

each star in this world are unique .
each star in the sky represent each person in the world ,
brightness of each star reflects the person's feeling ,
everyone will find their own star .
my grandmother used to told me this when i was small .

i wish to stay in a small village with a big field ...
i won't sleep in my house but at that field ,
i wanna lie on the field and look at the starry night .

i like this ,
this gives me a feeling that cannot be explained ...
maybe the song that playing now will explained everything for me .

sadness , sorrow , miss , love ...
all in one ...

i miss ,
our promise under the star ...

i miss ,
my childhood playmates ...

i miss ,
you ...

finally ...

yesterday was happy ,
but a feeling of a moment detroyed my day ...

i hate this ~
i hate this feeling ~
however , i have to face it ...
there is no escaping ...
perhaps someone or something could bring me to the exit ...

emotional decide all the winning and losing ... ?
it makes me feeling the final winning ,
but also makes me experiences the failure of the most thorough ...

i don't wish to see this happen anymore ,
but there is no way no prevent it ,
i must face it ...
i tried so hard to controll my emotional ...

i hate all through the night ...
after the sun goes down ...

since yesterday ,
i have no point to hate you but to stay far away from you ...
because i love you .

12.52 am

12.52 am ...
silent night ...

memories all around my mind ...
faces all around my mind ...
what else ??
i miss you ...

but ,
i hate you because i love you .
i am sorry .

clown ~

my life as a clown ,
or maybe i am really a clown ....

what a clown do is ....
always entertaining the public ,
making people laugh ,
making people happy ,
because this is their job ...

everyone thought that the clown is a funny and happy guy ...
but how many people ,
or maybe no one in this world will understand how does a clown feel ??

in front of the stage ,
he is such a funny and humour guy ...
but behind the stage ,
no one will know the story behind the clown ...

no one will ever understand a clown ,
just like no one will understand me ....

because i am the clown ...
the stupidest clown ....

i hate you becasue i love you .
i am sorry .