saturday .

actually today was a school day .
but i just skipped it .
xD

nothing to do early in the morning .
woke up then just continued my drama .

went out to find my dear dear .
feel so happy when saw her .
to bad something sad happened .
her money was stolen by someone .
dear dear so sad and angry ..
sorry i can't do anything but only stay beside you .

she told me she not feeling well ,
rupa-rupanya she fall sick .
heart pain =(

brought her back but her house had no one .
so we went out to have our lunch .
attent for driving lesson after that .
this time leg pain =.=

nothing much more happen .
still the same .
i love you more than i can say .

seminar =.=

terpaksa dan dipaksa attent the chinese seminar ,
which held at Sentul .

today was "rush" ~
reached Pudu girl school by 6.20 early in the morning .
Guan Lin and YangYang were earlier than me .
saw dear dear ~
miss her ><
had a small chat with her .

we shared a bus with Dato' Onn , Cochrane Perkasa and Puterijaya to go there .
reached there by 7.30 morning .
saw lots of friends there .

the seminar started at 8.ooam sharp .
lots of thing happened too .
i'll skip the boring part .
"jump jump jump ... skip skip skip ..."
finally can went back at 4.30pm .
traffic jam ...
holy shyt ...
reached pudu by 5.30 ...

rushed to find dear dear ~
i promised to find her when i back ><

went to pasar malam with dear dear ~
tired but still happy to be with dear dear ><
muacksssss

7 months .

23th of august ,
we have been together for 7 month .
what to say ...
we both are getting older ?
haha ...

my love to you is 7 times more than before .
maybe i just can't stop loving you ...

never hope so much ,
just hope that you are always be with me .
i am always there for you .

nothing can describe this ,
the strange feeling .

the game .

i am exhausted .
today's was our last game .
and also a hard game .
but at last we lose 56-59 .
they score at the last 2 SECOND !!!
nevermind ,
but it still a good and nice game .
__________

as i say ,
i'll discuss about the team in this post ,
each paragraph is describing each people .

your shooting is the best .
you never angry with us when we do something wrong .
you just ask us to do what are we suppose to do .
you are not only a good friend but a good player too .

your ball controlling skill is awesome .
you too never angry with us ,
although just say something behind us sometime .
but i am still happy to team up with you in this competition .
also thanks for willing to help us =]

you ,
you never listen to order ,
and just do what you are thinking .
you are still my friend , my teammate ,
although sometime i really not happy with you .
but this time you really done a great job .

don't forget what you promise me .
i know you really train hard for this competition .
i know you're injured ,
but your strenght bring you to the end of the competition .
now everything is over ,
and remember to rest well and take good care of your leg .

you are always my best friend in school .
jokes together , play together ...
we know what are each of us thinking right ?
we know what to do .
we never blame on each other .
i am happy for having you as my best friend and teammate .

you too ,
my best friend and teammate too .
nothing much to comment on you .
i know what you are doing .
but you're just lack of confidence .
hope you find back your confidence .

the blur one ,
i know you're playing competition for the first time .
i know you scare ~ haha ...
but we are still young right ?
(although you're older than me 1 year ~ =P)
there are still many chance for us to play in competition .
good luck for all of us .

the tall and skinny one ,
you get hurt easily o.o ~
i am so scare something will happen on you .
but i know you will be fine .
don't blame on yourself because of the mistake .
don't worry , be happy and healthy .

you the last one ,
concentrate more in the game ~ LOL .
don't keep on looking at the phone .
you too also lack of confidence ,
hope you find it back soon .
___________

about me ?
nothing much to say about .
haha ...

nevertheless ,
still happy to be part of the team .

random .

cannot deny that i hate malaysia's system very much .
don't know why ,
but i just hate it !!!
____________

these few days weather are weird .
sudden hot , sudden cold .

most of my friend are sick .
me too =[

just take good care of ownself lah .
____________

about the team ...
i'll say about this in the coming post xD

如果

回来了。
它回来了。

离我不久，
我以为能过得安心，
没想到，
终于都是回来了。

全都是我不想要的东西。
全都是我最讨厌的东西。
_____________

我想清了，
有些话，
想从这告诉你们。

信和兴，
我们做兄弟快十年了是吗 ？
如果真的有那么一天，
如果，如果，
你们俩坐在一起，
而我却在远方望着你们。
答应帮我好好照顾我家人好不好 ？

易和信，
算算看你们几年朋友了 ？
这段友情，
你们舍得放弃吗 ？
总有一天大家都会毕业，
大家都会为自己生活而忙，
当有一天，
你们出来喝茶叙旧时，
少了我的踪影，我的声音，
你们会开心的笑，
你们会高唱阔谈吗 ？

婆，
如果这一天真的来了，
不要怪我能吗 ？
我已经尽了我的全部，
只愿你能替我保佑他们的平安就好了。

如果真的有这么一天，
我最不舍得的一定是你。
我想一生一世就照顾着你，
我想就这样疼你爱你，
我不想就这样丢下什么都不管就走掉，
我想实践我对你的承诺，
我不想离开你。
如果这是真的，
答应我.........
_________________

该说得也说了，
也许想太多了。
我知道，
惊醒的感觉真得不好...

玻璃。

“今晚的我会是如何入睡”

“看来今晚的我很难入睡”

“原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪”

.

－林俊杰《原来》

_____________________________

.

种种字眼脑海里闪过，

却找不到适合的词汇，

不知道。

.

没什么，

信我能打破玻璃就好了，

我知道。

.

我的玻璃，

谁来打破？

cycle .

wow ...
today was extremely tired .
both my hand and leg muscle were in pain condition .

nothing special happen in school .
just feel sleepy and tired during lesson running .
due to the muslim are fasting now ,
school end at 12.35pm for the coming days .

went to time square alone to do something .
some crazy plan appear on my mind .
i better don't be crazy =.=
went back home first then only came out again .

out at 3.45pm .
riding bicycle .
ride from my house to her house .
i though i will took long time to reach her house .
who knew it just took me 20 minute ~ xD
don't know she feel SURPRISE or not when she saw me .

had our so called lunch around 4 something .
then we ride to Bandar Tun Razak park .
reached there by 6pm ,
then had a small walk with dear dear .
stayed up at there for 1 hour then only went back home .

crazy part ~ xD
helped her to take the bike from 5th floor to ground floor at first .
and helped her to take the bike from ground to 5th floor at last .
i think i will gain muscle if i done this more often .
xD

everything for me is nothing ,
when you are happy ,
when you are by my side .

对不起。

婆婆，
你在上面还好吗 ？
过得开心吗 ？
有没有时时在看我这你最疼的傻孙子吗 ？

我又很多东西想告诉你想跟你讲。
你走了差不多一年半了，
这段期间内发生很多东西啊。

你知道吗 ？

离大考的日子越来越少了，
学校家里给很大压力，
我真得很想考好好的。

家人根本都不明白我，
不知道我想什么。
告诉他们也没用，
他们只会死板板的，
什么都不接受的，
家里有事就只会怪我这大儿子。

婆婆，
你带了我15年，
从我出世开始就把我带大。
记得我说过我长大后，
会找个很好很孝顺孙媳妇给你吗 ？

我找到了，
我很爱她，我很疼她，
可能是我用错了方法。
不知道，
最近常弄得她生我气。
也许是我没用，
不懂得该如何哄她，
不知道该如何疼她，
也许我真的不是个好男友。

她很好，
是我不好。

看见她生气的样子，
我害怕，
我害怕她就这样一直气我，
我害怕她就这样对我不理不睬，
我感觉到我的呼吸开始颤抖，
我知道泪水在眼眶徘徊，
我知道，
我错了。

告诉我该怎样做。
我觉得很无助，
有时很想哭，
但却不能。
那种感觉很辛苦，很难受。

我只是想她开心罢了。
但我却亲手把它搞成这样。
我没用。

我只是想像以前那样。
我真得很希望。

200 days

went to school as usual .
6 people were not in the class .
but the class were still noisy .

feel tired still .
although it passed two days from the match already .
maybe i didn't get enough rest ?

went to time square to meet up with dear dear .
had our lunch at McDonald .
then walked to Pavillion for movie .
"Inception"
dream within dream .
how amazing ...
i like it .
i like Leonardo diCarpio too .

thanks for everything dear .
really ...

200天。

凌晨，
车子里。

“泷，你做么？”
“我什么做么？”
“刚才大家在玩，你自己在那按电话，怎么了？”
“没什么啦，你看路驾你的车啦。”
“真的没？”
“......” （望着窗外）

我们三个又睡在草场上，
望着天空谈天。
我，
不知觉的睡着了。

只记得，
那晚的天空没有星星。
什么都没有，
空空的。
就像我。

我也记得，
星期二就是我们一起200天了。
世间真快...

200天了，
我们经历了不多，但也不少。
笑容和泪水...
开心和伤心...

我答应了自己某些东西，
自己知道这就好了。

老师教我，

六十秒是一分钟

六十分钟是一小时

二十四小时是一天

七天是一星期

五十二星期是一年

。

但老师没教，

一天没看到你，

就是一千年。

我要的很容易，

在我身边，

要你开心，

这就足够了。

thanks . primary friend .

wanted to thanks someone here .

can't mention about her name .

thanks for helping me .

.

you want pay back from me by promise you something .

i promise you .

.

anyway ,

thank you .

______________________

.

went to ChunXian's open house party yesterday .

he moved into the new house .

congratz .

.

meet another 11 primary school friend there .

a small gathering .

all of us didn't change much .

just kept on chatting , capture photo ...

.

primary school memory was the best memory for all of us .

right ?

.

drank alot yesterday .

forced to drink ...

i was drunk after that .

but my mind was still clear .

i knew what am i doing ...

.

for both of you .

our bond is the best among all of them .

just say everything when you decide to tell us .

we joke together .

we sleep together .

we play together .

and we share together .

.

stop and stare .

all the time .

stop and stare .

stop and stare

.

give an eye to the lyrics ...

yeah ,

full of meaning and feeling .

.

it's still my favourite song after all ...

random .

complicated ...

maybe ...
wait till next time ,
i'll try to write out everything .

i know it isn't easy .
it's difficult but not impossible .

stop and stare

......

stop and stare

i think i'm moving but i go nowhere

yeah ,

i know that everyone get scared

but i've become what i can't be

.

stop and stare

you start to wonder why you're here not there

and you'd give anything to get what's fair

but fair ain't what you really need

oh , can you see what i see ?

......

- one republic

someone

what is point for you to be a teenager ?
having a 18-years old physical body ,
not a 18-years old mature mind thinking but a 3-years old little kid thinking ?

think properly for your ownself .
things happen every second , every minute , everyday and every year .

"ken loong , don't leave me lah , i scare scare later i cry ah ~"
"nic , i bite you one ah ~"
"pan , what are you doing now ? pee pee or poo poo ?"

come on man ,
you have been living on this planet for 18 years since you were born ,
and yet you are still having a 3-years old small kid thinking ?
you never learn from your life , your experience .
what you know is just 3 simple thing .
eat , sleep , and play .

that's all you know ?
no wonder you are still like that .

"mummy , i want pee pee ~ help me take off my pants ~"
"daddy , i want the aeroplane ~ buy me lah buy me lah ~"

what is the point for finding me if you failed to chase a girl ?
go away far from me and find another girl .
am i a girl ?
then why the hell you find me ?

ask me teach you how to chase a girl ...
bullshit , dogshit , catshit , cowshit , all kind of shit ...
how am i going to teach you when i know nothing about that ?
if i know then i won't be single for that time .
international idiot .
use your brain abit .

is it your brain's size as same as a peanut ?
even the dinosaures's brain is bigger then a peanut .
what to say ?
what to do ?

if you don't want then just tell us face to face .
don't go and disturb other people by saying :
don't want lah , don't like this lah ....
all sort of nonsence .

you wanna know why the hell you can't find a girlfriend ?
want me to tell you ?
okay ...
you are so childish .
girl's thinking is already more mature than a boy ,
and yet you are still that childish .

i warn you ,
if you come to me again and ask the same stupid idiot bastard question ,
i swear i will FUCK you .

think yourself .
3-years old kid ...

"mummy daddy , big kor kor say i am 3-years old small kid wo ~"
"wuuuu~ wuuuu~ wuuuu~"

losing .

there was still a game today .
we played .
and we lose .
70-53 .
17 points .
and Adrain "graduated" too ~
O.o

although it's sad ,
satisfied with the result ,
but not "some" of our teammate .

don't care about losing ,

we won't learning if we don't lose .

- Adrain -

yea ,

i do learned alot .

hohohoho ~ xD