没事了 。

今天学校发生的事 ，
至少我还能冷静下来处理 。

你弄谁都可以 ，
就是偏偏不能弄到我的傻猪猪 。
要知道我担心她 ，
还多过我担心我自己 。

若让我找到那张纸是谁贴上去的 ，
我真得不知道我会做出什么事 。
____________________

还记得那晚 ，
已接近凌晨了 。
我正在埋头苦干 。

你一封短讯 ，
我停了手上的功课 。

你说你睡不着 ，
突然担心害怕有一天我会走掉 。

也许 ，
可能 ，
是我给你的信心不够 ？

傻猪来的 ，
想太多了啦你 。

我现在不就好好地在这里啊 ，
答应了你永远陪着你啊 。

毕竟你是我最爱最疼的傻猪猪啊 ，
我怎可能也不舍得就这样走掉去不理你啊 。
______________________

爱一个人，

要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；

是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；

是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；

可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

傻猪猪

别再乱想了

永远爱着你

star .

this coming sunday ~
2 may 2010 ~
is gonna be a special day ~
__________________

i found 3 stars yesterday .
on my table .

open and look at it .
..........

thx dear dear ^^
muackssss

just for you

dear dear ~
sowie for just now ><
sowie sowie sowie ~ T.T

now i know what you actually want .
what you want ,
is also what i wish too .

love you ,
like i always do .
________________

1 year ago ,
we meet each other .
but both of us dunno each other .

7 months ago ,
we meet again in camp .
that was the 1st time i talked to you .

5 months ago ,
i got your cellphone number .
we started to text each other .

4 months ago ,
i am lost and i found myself because ,
i fall in love with you .

3 months ago ,
we were officially together .
i am gonna rewrite my new life .

till now ...
i love you more and more and more .
what i care and concern is you .
no one know me better than you do .
______________________________

no one is gonna hurt you again .
you will be the happiest person .
loving you and taking care of you forever and ever .
i promise .

just tell me whenever you need me .
i might not be the first one appear infront of you when you are sad .
but i will appear infront of you with my fastest speed .
i promise .
_________________

a long yet simple post ,
just for you .

pain . random .

oh yeah ~
today was fabulous .
ate wrong thing at school .
made me suffer now .

and it still paining now .
><
___________________

went to pudu with Kwan Sing after school finished .
put our beg at perijaya and then had our lunch at sunshine beach .
playing chinese chess while waiting time passed .

i was winning at first ,
but after he put on his so called lucky watch ,
then i kept lose .
=.=

his chemistry class started at 3.45pm .
so we went up to perijaya again ,
and i saw my another Ah Sou ~
xD
____________________

biology class ,
four of them were late .
luckily there were still some seat for them .

fall asleep during tuition class ,
don't know what happen .
maybe too tired or lack of sleeping ?
____________________

chatting in msn ,
get angry AGAIN and AGAIN .

i was trying my best to control my anger ,
yet still get angry easily .
what's wrong with me ?

everything was just my fault .
just blame on me .

dear dear

i seriously

miss you alot

><

sunday ~

as usual ~
cant sleep till very late today .
had to go for tuition class early in the morning .

had our so called breakfast at mamak stall .
always the same place =.=
i accidentaly fell asleep at there due to the hot weather .
zzz ~

saw anwar while going back ,
he saw us and say ,
"ohh , dating dulu baru masuk class lah ~"
both of us were .... =x

too bad today physics class were full ~
so we went to perijaya lepak .

i was so "cham" ...
kena hit by dear dear ...
almost pain till cant walk ~
><
_____________________

just told my parent that i want to drive .
they looked like "Sam Yuk Yuk" jor ~
i think i am going to drive very soon ~
xD

saturday

saturday was so boring ...
stay at house but done nothing .

morning ,
went to school ~
study as usual ~
but today were so less people =.=

had a small and quick meeting after recess .
Mr. Kamal want us to prepare a performance for this coming friday .
7 of us were "oh my god" .
he want us to finish it by wednesday .
just few days to finish this .
we try our best =.=

went to jusco meet dear dear after school finish .
she looked so sick ><
luckily she still nothing ~

night time ,
i was so god damn fire big ...
something + something = angry
* dont ask me what is that "something"

but after that ,
everything back to normal =)

爱上你

越来越无可救药

love you

my dearest sohGG

muacksss

3 month .

time pass through so fast .
we have been together for 3 month ady .

so sowie cant celebrate today ><
i promise i will bring you go for movie next week ~
ok ?

dear dear ~
love you forever ~
thanks for everything ~
muacksss ^^

谢谢

看了“初恋红豆冰” ~
蛮不错的 ，
感人感动 。
_________________

这种电影 ，
我想我不适合去看 ，
我想我还是不习惯 。

那种画面 ，
那份感情 ，
的却会钩回我一年前的回忆 。
__________________

我敢承认 ，
到头来我确实是还没走出这噩梦 ，
但我却不敢坦然面对 。

我怕有天会忘了你的样子 ，
所以才把照片放在钱包里 。

我怕有天会忘了你对我的好 ，
所以才一直回想过去 。
_______________________

17 年了 ，
从未向你道谢过一句 。

现在的谢谢 ，
虽然是迟了许多 。
但我还是希望你收到 。

谢谢你 ，
亲手的将我带大 。

谢谢你 ，
教会我许多东西 。

谢谢你 ，
一路以来的支持 。

谢谢你 ，
给了我一个美好的回忆 。
__________________

不必担心我 ，
我会好好的活下去 。
我不会辜负你的 。

就像你常说的：
“别人看不起自己不要紧 ，最重要是自己看得起自己”
___________________

不必担心 ，
我没事了 。
我不会再让你担心了 。

谢谢你 ，
傻猪猪 。

competition . koko .

lose today .
31 - 36 .

never the less ,
it is still a good game .
____________________

for me ,
basketball competition end today .
i am not in the school team anymore next year .
this year is the last .
and we make it into quarter final .
congratz everyone .

for those who playing for the school next year ,
add oil and train hard ~
you guys can make it into semi or final .
______________________

most of the ko-ko end .
1 more thing to go ,
sport day .

don't feel like taking part this year .
although i am the pengerusi ,
but i think i will skip all the training .
who say pengerusi cannot ponteng ?
xD
______________________

my leg is getting better and better .
no more pain .
but still have to be careful .

dont worry

be happy

i will be fine

nothing's gonna take me down

love you forever

人 。

突然间 ，
就觉得人生很儿戏 。

说来就来 ，
说去就去 ，
谁也阻挡不了 。
谁也不知道下一秒会发生什么事 。
只能听天由命 。

纵使已经过了一年多了 ，
但我依然还没能走出这梦 ，
回忆依然还是历历在目 。
就像刚发生似的 。

刚开始总是会自责 ，
但时间一样会过 ，
人走了就不能再回来的 。
就只能顺其自然吧 。

人总是要学会变得坚强 。
比之前的自己要更坚强 。
不能就因为小事而哭了出来 。

纵然伤心 ，

也不要愁眉不展 ，

因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容 。

但这种事 ，
我，笑不出 。
发生这种是谁还能笑得出口 ？
当事人可能会吧 ，
对他们来说这应该是中解脱吧 。

怎么说 ，
好歹我是你第一名孙子 ，
好歹我也是你的大孙子啊 ，
好歹我也是你亲手带大的啊 。

你怎能说走就走 ？
至少也让我看看你最后一面 。

你不守信用 ，
说要看我长大 ，
还开玩笑说以后要看看我的女朋友 。

现在我有女朋友了 ，
我第一个女朋友叻 ，
我想带她见你也不能了 。
永远都没这个机会了 。

你骗人的 ，
你说你只是累了 ，
想睡觉罢了 ，
怎知道一睡就不再醒来了 。

我知道以前的我很顽皮 ，
但是你还是那么疼我 。
还那么喜欢开我小玩笑 。

就算开玩笑也有个程度啊 。
但是这个玩笑开不过啊 ，
你就醒醒啊 。
不管你多累 ，
就醒醒一下子就好了啊 。

我不再是小孩子了 ，
我不会再气你了 ，
但为什么你就是不要醒来 ？

我知道

梦该醒了

放心

我会好好的

monday . match .

today's match ,
win ...
get into quarter final .

but connaught is our opponent for tomorrow's match .
gonna do our best to win .
______________________

went to find dear dear in the afternoon .
had our lunch at sunshine beach .
fall asleep at there accidentaly .
>.<

went to biology tuition class after that .
donald was so darn funny ~ xD

i will do what i promised to you .

=)

love sohGG forever

muacksss

painfull .

today was fabulous .
my leg pain like a woman is giving birth to a baby like that .
thanks to the one who pushed me yesterday .
_______________________

tuition this morning .
from 8.15am till 3.30pm .
of course there's a break lah .
if not how am i going to tahan this long time .
_______________________

leg sprain ,
can't go anywhere already .
at first promise dear dear want bring her go watch movie punya .
but cant .
sowie ><
_______________________

went back home after tuition class .
alone in home again .
just like yesterday .
haiz ...

1 more group match to go .
play with SAB ~
all of you manage to win this game .

i wonder which school we are playing with if we get into quarter final ?

dear dear

mm sai dam sam

ngo geh giok mou shi

sek sai lei muacksssss

sprain . funny .

went to cempaka this morning .

thanks to you my friend ,
for pushing me and make me sprain my leg .
really thanks alot .
_______________________

find dear dear after that .
wanted to go time square for a small walk .
meet lee chee and ah tam at there .

walked to pavilion to watch movie .
too bad no more ticket .
decided went to WONG KOK for yam cha .
ah tam and me became so friend already but we just meet each other once before .

ah tam hold my hand and ask me :
tam :“冷吗 ？”
me :“不冷咯 。”
me :“是非常冷 。”
ah tam let me zadao and was so speechless .
the other 4 girls included dear dear were laughing like nobody ~

went back to school for basketball training .
coach was not coming ,
and we were forced to stop the trainin due to the heavy rain .
_______________________________

my sprained leg ...
at first was nothing .
after that was becaming more and more serious .
dear dear so scared about that .
nothing de lah me .

random ~ xD

我这只孤魂野鬼 ~
外面有哪个球队可以收留我 ？

打完校队比赛后 ，
我看应该不会在比赛了 。
外面有哪位好心人士可以收留我叻 ？
T.T
______________________

1 more group match to go .
play with SAB ~
but we are going to the quarter final for sure .
hope we get a "nice" school in quarter final .

all of us wanna get into semi-final badly ~
if posible masuk final lagi best lah ~
xD
_____________________

something happened today morning ,
i was like "OMG" ~
this time sure mati jor ~

but finally nothing happen ~
luckily ~
xD
_____________________

cough all the time .
cough till i headache ...
suffer from the pain ~

><

soh GG

you are always that good to me

and i am always that love you

forever and ever

result . painful .

tomorrow not going to school again ~ xD
having basketball match tomorrow ~
good luck everyone and all the best .
________________________

for the first time in my life ,
i score an A for my add math ~
cause everytime my add math nearly failed ~
bingo ~ xD

but the moral paper ~
very beh song that teacher de lah ~
macam give marks until not satisfied like this ~
must potong 1 mark from every question punya .
make me lose 7 marks ~
make me lose my A ~
deng !!!

and the whole moral period i keep fxxk that teacher .
really beh song punya lo .

most interesting part ,
BIOLOGY ~ xD
everyone of us did not aim to score an A ~
but aim to pass ~
xD
________________________

suffer from stomachache today ,
almost pain for the whole day .
and afternoon was the so call "climax" ~
i was beh tahan until i keep holding dear dear hand ~
le<

thx dear dear ~
love you so much ~
i wont forget what i promise you de lah ~
^^

about you .

lose myself in passed few days .
and i found myself back ,
finally .
___________________

dear dear lose their match in quarter final .
don't be sad ,
everything is just a game .
even life is a game too .

2 more games to go .
after that is quarter final .
but our target is semi-final .
hope everyone of us do their best .
___________________

never imgaine that i am such a double-sided person .
you might see my smiling face in this minute .
and the happiness might disappear from my face in the next minute .

maybe it is just one of gemini's personality .
who knows ?

lots of people criticise that gemini are flower-hearted person .
no one knows whether it is true or not ,
no one knows what is in gemini's mind ,
but except gemini .

the only thing i know ,
i would never be a flower-hearted person just like the others .
( i am not criticising others as well )
and i am just loyal to my dear dear .
nothing is gonna separate both of us .

i am always an ordinary gemini .
proud to be gemini ,
always .
_______________________

you are always the one to calm me down .
you know me better than the others did .

sorry for what i done wrong ,
thanks for always by my side .

dear dear

i love you

just like you love me

love you forever

无题

明天应该会没事了 。
不知道 。

就希望没事就好了 ，
一切恢复正常就好了 ，
不想再这样下去了 。
________________

这两天脾气臭啦 。
心情不好啦 。
我知道啦 。

对不起嘛 ，
我自己也不知道自己在搞什么 。
不过我也不想这样的嘛 。

傻猪猪 ，

我骗你只不过不想你担心罢了嘛 。

没事了 。

真的没事了 。

你知道的

我一直都这么爱你

无题。随笔。

都已经凌晨12.22分了 ，
还坐在电脑前的我 ，
望着荧幕 ，
发呆 。

脑子里在想很多东西 ，
但我却无从下笔 。

尽管睡意缠绕着我 ，
但我却没有丝毫想睡的感觉 。
_____________________

不知道 。
不知道这两天在搞什么 ，
不知道怎么这两天脾气那么臭 ，
不知道为什么心情会那么不好 。

我还好好的 。
突然间就莫名其妙的这样了 ，
突然间又在胡思乱想些什么 ，
突然间情绪就变得那么不稳定 。

自己的问题 。
自己却找不到答案 。

健泷 ......
你是怎么了 ？

随笔

今天的比赛 ，
硬战一场 。
但最后还是赢了 。

虽然还有两场比赛还没打 。
但如无意外 ，
我们应该会顺利地进入八强 。

大家加油吧 。
____________________

不知怎了 ，
这两天脾气有够臭的 。
心情自然也好不到哪里去 。

都不知道自己在搞什么的 。
____________________

千错万错都是我错 。

过去了就让它过去 。
这种事情想起也罢了 。
没事了 。

competition . chatting . sleep .

competition starts today .
2 games today .
win both game .
you guys did a great job .
____________________

补习，
与朋友聊天，
关于男女间的感情。

“不觉得可惜吗？毕竟你们这样都了半年...”
“刚开始是会的，不过一年前已经不会了。”
“我很好奇，为什么你们会不能一起？”
“某些私人原因 ...... ”

望着她那方向，
愣住了。

曾经有段时期是讨厌他们的 。
毕竟我也是个人 ，
我也有七情六欲 。

算了吧。
恨太多，没结果，往事重提是折磨 。
__________________________

这一定会让人误会，
我知道 。
但知道自己喜欢的是谁就好了 。

她已经过去了 。
再也不会跟她扯上任何关系了 。
_________________________

午时，
可能累了吧 ，
躺上床就睡了 。

但有种感觉 ，
很玄的感觉 。
蛮喜欢的 。

i dont want much

i dont want anything

you are enough for me

love you forever

competition . promise .

competition starts tomorrow .
good luck for those who take part .

good luck to dear dear also ~
do all your best ~
gambateh !
_________________________

no need worry about me .
i will do what i promise to you .
right ?

no need to scare about me .
i angry ,
because i care about you .
i scare anything happen on you .
_________________________

everything passed already ,
i want you to be happy everytime , everyday ,
i want you to feel safe every minute , every moment .

don't hide yourself behind a mask .
just be youself .
promise me ,
okay ?

choice . reason . promise .

if you don't make a choice

choice will make you

.

i had made my choice ,

i wont let go this time .

.

i am not a perfect person ,

as many things i wish i could do .

just for you .

.

i've found a reason for me

to change who used to be

a reason to start over new

and the reason is you

.

thanks ,

for everything .

.

i will do what i promise you today .

but remember to calm me down ,

when i am wrong again .

miss you so much recently

just hope to be with you

every moment

love you dear dear

无题。

我说没有就没有
但你们硬要说有

我说真话你们当假话
我说假话你们当真话

你们根本都不信我
既然是这样
那不如不要信我
_________________

说真的，
刚还真有点气。

但你始终是我最疼的傻猪猪
我哪舍得气你那么久

你一通电话来我便没事了
呵呵

放心吧，
我没事 =)

missing ..

normal school life start again tomorrow .
finally exam is over .

feel so tired since the school start from early this year .
i think i never take a good rest .
maybe everything will end after middle of the year ?

____________________________

i need a little more luck than a little bit .
cause everytime i get stuck my word wont fit .
and everytime that i try i get tongue tied .
i need a little good luck to get me by .

i stare up at the stars ,

i wonder just where you are ,

you feels a million miles away .

.

miss you so much recently .

its bad to miss someone .

=(

.

人并不是因为美丽才可爱，而是因为可爱才美丽。

exam over .

exam just over ...
but still nothing special ~
and everything back to normal .

A.....B.....C.....D
.

E.....F.....G.....H
.

I.....♥.....U.....V
.

W....X.....Y.....Z

i promise

i will do everything

to keep you happy and safe

love you forever dear

muackssss

physics .

yesh ~
today physics ~
MAMPUS !!!
whatever ~
as long as i can pass ~
xD

tomorrow last paper for me ~
physics 3 ~
not doing any revision now ,
cause i dun have any reference book ~
xD

for those who having account paper ~
give all your best .
________________________

went back house after school .
she told me she went to SBU till 4.30pm .
ok lo ~
i took a nap ~
who knows she reached at 6.20pm .
........

basketball competition start on next week .
have to train .
find back my feeling .

thanks

for everything

love you

dear dear

muacksss ^^

monday . exam .

yesterday ,
monday ~
same as usual ~
exam =.=

funny thing ,
Kit Ee and Wei Wen were shouting like hell ,
"i thought you afraid of snake ?"
"mana tau is dog ah ??!!"
*i was laughing like hell in the same time*

went to perijaya with kwan sing after school ,
i went there to meet dear dear ,
he too ~ xD

he made his own quiz ,
stupid question with stupid answer =.=

1. which is my favourite disney character when i was small ?
a . mickey mouse
b . minnie mouse
c . ken loong
d . kit ee

i was so speechless when i saw this =.=
went to sunshine beach for lunch after that .
i took out a necklace and gave it to dear dear .
she shocked .
cause i told her that i din buy anything for her at sunday ~ xD

tuition till 10pm .
tired dao ...
xD

hot tired sunday

just came back from outside .
outside is so hot and i am so tired .

dear dear woke me up at 6.30am this morning ~
got tuition mah ~ >.<
history and physics class .

i though i could spent my time with her .
too bad she had to go back puchong ...
T.T

not in a good mood today morning .
but everything back to normal now .
dont worry .

thanks for everything

love dear dear forever

muackss

saturday

saturday ,
no tuition ,
went cempaka for basketball in the morning .

in the same time ,
dear dear was at stadium bukit jalil for her sport day .
she took part in 4x400 ~
and she won the third place .
congratz ~

after basketball ,
went to jusco maluri's McD .
other people went there for account tuition class .
and i went there for something else .

night ,
went to pasar malam with dear dear , sy and her bf steven .
steven so lengzai ~ xD

phew ~
what a tired day .

history . basketball .

everything will become history after today .
coz today's history paper has over .
xD

3 more days to go .
3 more days to suffer .
fight till last breath .
xD

went smk dato lokman for a basketball friendly match .
result :
under 15 - win
under 18 - win

after the game ,
i was out of time ,
and i straightly rushed to martin for add math class .
and i was late .

that sei umaas saw me .
"your girlfriend here ."
"can study if you sit alone ?"

he also called me "mankay's boyfriend" ...
i was totally speechless ~
=X

so tired man ~
i am exhausted ~
xD

never will leave you

be with you forever

love you dear dear

muacksss

发泄。

老师今天所说的全是对的，
尤其是关于父母那段。

是我父母又怎样 ？
只是那两个小的值得你们去疼 ，
你们有理过我没 ？
还是你们从来都没把我当成孩子看待 ？

整天只顾工作 ，
都不理我的 ，
我生病 ，
病死了你们都不知道的咯 。

全部东西丢完给我 ，
有什么事起来就赖我 。
难道那两个小的没有任何责任 ？

我这个大 ，
什么都啃完 ，
黑锅我背完 ，
死猫我吃完 。

整天只会说我不读书 ，
成绩差 ，
品行坏 。

“你什么什么亲戚的儿子女儿考到straight A ...”
“你看你自己，整天只顾着玩，不读书 ...”
干吗拿我跟他们比 ？
他们是他们 ，
我是我 ，
如果真得那么喜欢他们不喜欢我 ，
倒不如你们把他们当作自己的孩子 ，
当作生少我一个咯 。

整天只会看死我 ，
这样做不到 ，
那个做不到 ，
考试考不好 。
有父母竟然会看死自己的孩子 ，
我还是第一次见 。

说我考试考不好 ？
把我骂得狗血淋头 ？
那么你们怎么不去看看那两个小的 。
他们整天只是玩 ，看电视 ，成绩红色的 。
你们竟然不骂他们反而来骂我 ？
你们要我做的东西我都做到了 ，
他们俩什么都不做 ，
但到头来被骂得是我 ？

然后还把所有事赖到学校身上 ，
说什么读了这学校我才变成这样 。
也不用你们的脑想想 ，
是谁帮我转学来这学校的 ？
到头来现在赖学校 ？

生活是我的 ，
未来是我的，
为什么你们就是要替我打理好 ？
我不是说不喜欢 ，
但至少都给我做自己的选择 。

我知道你们以前是什么 top student ,
什么 head prefect ,
但是生活是我的 ，
为啥你们就是要把它弄得像你们以前那样 ？
我并不是什么 top student ，
也并不是什么 head prefect ,
我自己满意自己的生活就好了啊 ，
你们不满意又怎样 ？
不满意就要管着我的啦 ？

我的生活我自己会管 ，
我的未来我自己会走 。

我还真佩服这样的父母 。
我还真怀疑 ，
这17年内我到底是怎样过生活的 ？

april fool .

today was april fool leh ~
nothing special happen .
not fooling people and didnt get fooled .
___________________

tomorrow - history paper .
but i am not going to study now .
dont know .
maybe later ?
___________________

went pudu to attend tuition class .
i straight away went there after school finish .

reached there .
went to Yang Guang to find her .
wanted to give her a surprise .
who knew that she came late than me .

she reached .
her eye were so big when she saw me sitting at there .
xD