back again .

sorry for dint update my blog .
just too many thing happen in this few weeks .
i am tired of it .
and now i have already fully recover and back to blogging again .
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i dont want to be a betrayer .
i dont want to lose anything or anyone .

i am collapsing now .
just keep blaming myself for dint think out a prefect way to settle this down .

i am losing my spirit .
just feel like my strenght does not follow my order .
i cant take this anymore .

maybe i will just disappear for few weeks .
perhaps this could get me out from the suffering .

i am running out of time .
sometime just feel like want to settle this down ,
but i couldnt do this .
i am lying to myself .
i scare to face the fact .
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别看我好像什么都不理 ~
我其实是很在意的 ~
只是我不想让你知道 ~

这种感觉真得很玄 ~
都已经几个次了 ~
我始终摆脱不了这阴影 ~
而且还跟随着我到处去 ~

累了 ~
不知道该怎样去把这件事情交待清楚 ~
或许我再也不想去交待了 ~