死后两天 ~~

死后的第二天 ~~~

恨意没减少，反而增加了更多 ~~
但我至少还可以控制自己的情绪 ~~

i am still loving ....
i am still hating ....

......

何健泷已经死了 ！！！

i hate all this ...
i hate .....

regret again ... ???

our relationship totally change after that incident ~
and i am always hoping that time can flow back to the past ~
regret for did not say this out to .....

people always say ,
always smile when facing a trouble ,
and i am smiling now ,
but i am force to smile ....

sorry for being so cool to you guys ~
and some one wanted to say ' hi ' to me but scare i ignore because i am in a bad mood ,
sorry for that also lah ...

missing u ~
missing myself ~

chance ~

every one in this world deserve a second chance ....
but should i deserve it ???

a second chance from u ....
may i ??

untitle .....

regret ~
so regret ~

i wont say out what am i regret for at here ~
but you guys can ask me personally ~
will you all get the answer ??
but i think most probably you all wont get the answer ~
coz i wanna keep it as my own secret ~

i lost the opportunity again and again ~

i hate myself ~
hate myself for being a coward ~
hate myself for being a useless guy ~
hate myself for dint ............

what am i suppose to do .......

i miss you ~
i do hate you also ~

12.10 am ~

12.10 am ....

cant sleep yet ~
dont know why ~
i am trying to forget everything and have a sweet dream ~

nothing much to write about ~
that's all ~

i miss u ~
i miss our memories ~

mad ... angry ...

do not judge a book by it's cover ~
i am not as good as you all think ~
and i am a gemini ~
i might have double or more characteristic ~
who know what will happen with me next minute ~

you two are the one who start the game first ~
two of you are just a loser ~
there is no way for you two to defeat me ~
but you guys still wanna play with me izit ?

just bring it on ~
but i swear you two will suffer with it ~

i miss u ~
i miss wednesday ~

wonderful holiday ~

at least i forget everything in a short moment ~
and concentrate in basketball ~

but the way they play just like want to fight ~
maybe 1 day ~
"hot shot 2 " will happen at the cempaka's basketball court ~
who know ???
xD

holiday done nothing ~
basketball basketball basketball ~~
i play basketball all the time during this holiday ~
and i didn't even celebrate my own birthday ~
whatever ~

i am getting darker and darker ~
hope there is no one will "salah faham" me ~

I AM NOT A MALAY !!
I AM A PURE CHINESE !!

=.=

i miss you ~
i miss the day ~

change ~

there is no sign of changing about me ~
what i need is change , change , change ~
i don't care it is in physical or mental ~
i just want to change ~
change myself to face the problem ~
but i fail ~
i fail to face the problem ~
i fail to face you ~

i am still standing at the same place ~
the day when i forget you ,
is the day i will keep going ~

untitle ~

hope my kaimui , CC's grandfather is getting better ~
and i also hope that her shingle will get well soon ~
just enjoy everyday with all your happiness ~
=]

now i suppose to keep on walking to discover the beauty of my life ~
and searching another part for myself ~
but why am i still standing at here ...... ??
i wondering why ....

yes ....
it's you again ~

people are not lonely when they are alone ~
lonely come to us when we are thinking someone ~

i'm really lonely now ....

i miss you .....

bday past ....

thx for all my fren's bday greeding ~

and yet ...
i m still not happy ....

nothing much to write ~
even i write something ~
it sure will be a sad n emo post ~
better i dun write anything ~

that's all i can write for this post ....

i swear ~

i hate this ~
i hate this feeling ~
i hate everything about this ~

i gonna loss my anger soon ~

and don't ask me
why i m not happy ~
i ain't gonna tell u all ~

but i swear to god ~
promise to myself ~

it start with peace ~
but i will end it with my anger ~

不要对我再说爱 ~~

太多爱不明不白
我还在
分手的那一天原地徘徊

太多事不明不白
不明白
怎么笑着走出来

不要对我再说爱
你回来
可是过去再也回不来

不要对我再说爱
我还在
秋千上摇摆

太多人不明不白
我不想
重新开始后还想着原来

太多人不必等待
我不能
给你确定的未来

不要对我再说爱
你回来
可是过去回不来

不要对我再说爱
我还在
秋千来回上摇摆

不要对我再说爱
我坦白
一直忘不了原来

不要对我再说爱
我害怕
我们在受到伤害

不要对我再说爱
你回来
可是过去回不来

不要对我再说爱
就让我
一个人静静摇摆

一段爱从不明白到明白
我的眼泪才慢慢流出来

6 days ~

june 1 ....
new month ....
new life ....

6 more days to go .....
anything thing will happen ???
any miracle will happen ???